So, I used to be a frequent user of the forum. I'd be logged in constantly and post multiple times a day. I drifted away for a while mainly due to former members but came back.
Then my life got absolutely blown apart. As a result I developed some pretty significant mental health issues, 7 admissions to psychiatric hospital in 2019, only one in 2020 and I'm absolutely engaged with mental health services.
I also fell back into addiction, leading to a drug induced heart attack in July 2019. This is ongoing, but I've been clean and sober now basically since December last.
Now I'm back living in a studio flat in Southampton, where I moved back to from where I was, unable to work and waiting for my divorce to be finalised. Had my driving licence revoked too.
I didn't even think about guitars basically, most of mine were in storage alongside my Helix and I ended up selling off a lot of gear.
I'm starting to get back into playing now, and I've started using the forum for more than the classifieds again. My MH is shaky and complicated, but playing seems to help apart from when I don't pick one up for a few days and feel irrationally guilty and sad about it. I've also bought a few instruments recently but I'm trying to slow that down a bit so I don't end up obsessing over GAS and filling my flat up. It's already pretty full of the gear I have and my snakes need a fair bit of space too lol.
Am I the only one here with diagnosed MH problems who is also comfortable about discussing them? There's such a stigma even these days.
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I'm on hardly any meds atm, I've been on all sorts these last few years but I've got it down. I'm really restricted with what I can have too, because of my heart attack and addiction issues. I can't have anything mood altering.
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Have you noticed a difference in yourself? My symptoms have changed a fair bit over the last couple of years, but it's a sideways change rather than an improvement. At least I'm not rapid mood cycling any more, that gets old fast and it's impossible to cover up. At one point I was cycling every 30 seconds to 5 minutes and I just couldn't cope.
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I have noticed a lot of differences in the last year, compared to before. I had a big chaotic company change that I had no control over, I'd just become a dad and had a ton of extra responsibility on me, and the band saw massive changes, all roughly at the same time. I found it hard to adjust and I just slipped further and further into depression.
2015 to 2019 were pretty hellish years for me. Even people on here have commented about how different I seem.
I would always encourage someone to get some treatment and to make life changes. Small ones at first, ones that you can stick to And then work on the big stuff.
Really the key for me was to stop hating myself.
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My meds help in some ways but I'm not sure the benefits outweigh the side effects by much.
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Yeah sleeping is one of the big benefits.
I'm under the addictions team and have just started seeing a psychiatrist. I just got some forms today to fill in for assessment. Not looked at them yet going to do it tomorrow.
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Edit; prescription.
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Zopiclone is a horrible withdrawal. So easy to buy too online.
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I said, but I do.. er, how can you not listen and help? Thats your job..
I even showed them the community online complaining about the drug and the ‘withdrawal symptoms’, who are also being ignored..
They ignorantly dismiss it all, say its not addictive, you cant get withdrawal symptoms, then tell me to wean off it again..
Not sure why weaning is needed if its not addictive? But ok..
The drug has a half life of like
12 hours or something.. yet the GP’s recommend doing 1 day on, 1 day off.. which completely fucks the system up because my body sees a Paxil load one day, then the next it goes cold turkey, then the next it gets loaded again..
I requested an actual Psychiatrist look at me, someone who understands the drug. But no, apparently you have to be assessed via an intervention team to get to see an actual professional for mental health now..
And because I am not a danger to myself or others, I am deemed not worthy of being seen by anyone but a general
practitioner or a ‘community therapist’ whose chemical knowledge is nil.. they cant prescribe at all even.
them, it gets ignored.. I give up, say ok. Like yeah I’m fine on it, I was also fine off it, I was just young and hurt by my friends, and lonely and hadnt got much going for me. I was just feeling sorry for myself really. I really dont think I ever needed this drug.
Whilst drug/alcohol is not an issue, retail therapy is something they do suffer from (it's just another addiction).
It does get me down at times work keeps me sane, bit dealing with emotional breakdowns and/or massive rages (which can be very distructive) is fucking hard at times. Lockdown has not helped as social interaction is a such a good distraction for them and myself.