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Subsequently, the graft clotted - Why?? ... And they had to open her up again etc. I'm smelling multiple mistakes and that my mum need not have died. It wasn't her time. She was the fittest 85yr old I know.
She was taken from us too early.
I'm not sure what to do about my suspicions or whether it's even worth pursuing as if they've messed up they will do everything they can to hide it, and I'm just one bloke. In any case, nothing will bring her back, mistakes or not, and that's all that matters. I'm not remotely interested in a medical malpractice suit or money. I just want mum back and nothing in heaven or earth can do that.
I miss my mum so much.
Offset "(Emp) - a little heavy on the hyperbole."
Don't pursue it. That way lies a load of aggravation, stress and anger - all of which will ultimately be futile and none of which you need in your life right now. It might feel good to be "doing something" to distract you from the immediate grieving, but that's only a postponement and only bottles it up (and the grief emotions will look for another outlet). Anger & blame are no substitute for grieving and remembering. Things aren't always someone's fault, sometimes things just are.
Better to accept what's happened, accept that it can't be changed, grieve fully and properly now, and have your memories of her be happy ones.
... but that's a whole lot easier to say from where I'm sitting.
Emp_Fab said:
You always will, you'll always remember her. The passing of time doesn't change any of that, but it does dull the pain slowly.
It may well be that surgical techniques have improved since he died (it was in 1983) - but the surgery was considered to be his only shot at survival - with poor odds. He suffered clots and subsequently had a leg amputated. A few days later, they had to take the other one off. After three massive operations, he died about three weeks after he was first admitted. In my heart I started to grieve him as soon as he went in - something told me he wouldn't survive.
He was only 69 - I was 19. Like I said, it was a terrible shock.
I have no doubt in his case that the medics fought valiantly to save him - I'm sure they did with your mum - unfortunately some conditions are just too severe....
My sympathies @Emp_Fab I'm really sorry for your loss.
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That's what I'm trying to cling to for comfort. It could have been so much worse.
I'm taking the rest of today and tomorrow to try to calm my mind and get a lid on the worst of the crying. There is a shitload of stuff to sort out, but that can wait for the moment. I'm dreading it, but for today and tomorrow, I'm trying to put it in a mental filing cabinet and close the door on it.
Strangely, I decided to phone a counsellor I used to see for anxiety a couple of years ago, to ask if he did bereavement counselling. It turns out that he's in Germany having had to fly back there (he's German) as his mum passed away on Wednesday. We had a nice chat and agreed it was probably best if I contacted one of his colleagues instead as we'd both just end up crying to each other, which wouldn't be particularly beneficial for either of us.
Offset "(Emp) - a little heavy on the hyperbole."
I hope you can focus on the positives, like you said your mum had a good innings and went pain free, my dad was 72 and it does feel like it's 10years too soon. We knew it was coming with my dad, he was diagnosed with osophegus cancer so unfortunately I've seen him shrink away to nothing as he ended up unable to eat. I'm told it gets better and I believe it, my mum is holding up like a trooper I don't know how she does it.
Take care and move on as quickly as possible they'd hate to think of us wallowing or being unhappy I'm sure.
In my thoughts guys... Have a big Waz Hug, and it'll be a special one.
I lost my mum to a DVT which the hospital denied was there but which her GP had diagnosed and sent her to the hospital in the first place.
It takes time but it does get better. You might not even want to feel better now, but you will. You never ever get over the loss though.
Good luck for now and do take on board all the kind thoughts being expressed here. Your mum would be proud of you.
She was your Mum, and there's no closer bond in life. It's a hard one to deal with for sure, but somehow we do. I was totally in bits when I lost mine to the big C a few years ago, and the support I got from some of the members of this fine forum was a source of great comfort. Especially during the dealing with funeral stuff, and the other mundane bits you have to deal with.
I still have days when I forget and think I must tell me Mum about something or other, and then remember. And no more Sunday lunches occasionally gets me down something chronic.
My only advice is to just let yourself feel however you want to. Grief takes many forms and there's no right or wrong way, the first day I got the most pissed I've ever been (not a good long term strategy). You will get used to what's happened but you'll never get over it, and that's how you know that you are her son and loved her.
You can be quite the annoying sod on here Emp, and your procrastination would win medals if it was an Olympic sport, but you've always come across as a decent sort of a bloke, and that is in no small part to do with the woman who raised you. So Mrs Mum-of-Emp did good in her time here on Earth, try and take some comfort from that.