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As for the friends, I completely understand your disappointment and anger at them. I also understand that it can be really difficult to know what to do as a friend of someone who's suffered such incredible loss - and shown such enormous fortitude in dealing with it. I had no idea what to post throughout this thread; I can only hope that I can offer some useful suggestions at this stage. People have different abilities to deal with different things.
They don't know what to say, whether to smile or be sad, how you'll be and how they'd react, etc, etc. So they avoid putting themselves - and possibly you - in an awkward position by not coming around.
As they see how you're handling everything, they'll relax a little more, and start being in your life a little more.
most people are frightened off, they feel uncomfortable
I'm not sure what the best tactic is, perhaps just invite one or two round at a time to nip out for a pint, to break the ice again?
Funerals and death do tend to make the arseholes come out of the woodwork. I hope you get things resolved with Sheena's ex, but there was obviously a reason they got divorced in the first place and he doesn't sound a particularly nice character. If you haven't already done it, make a bombproof will so that your wishes are adhered to precisely .
I'm not online as much as previous, I feel it takes an effort to do so but I'm sure I'll get back into the swing of things. Didn't want to be rude and not reply, though!
Sheena's friends have been pretty good. It's mainly my "close" friends but hey ho. I've been direct at asking them but nothing much happens. I don't want to make a big song and dance about it but at least now I know.
I'm going back to work 4th Dec... hopefully transition in slowly in time for end of the year..!
It was good to speak to the Marie Curie nurse. At least I didn't wake up at 4am feeling angry and unable to get back to sleep. I'm sure nobody else is feeling angry. So why feel like that myself.. trying to let it slide..
Her ex and I actually get on but his words about Sheena and his betrayal of her final wish was a lot for me to take. I'm sort of ignoring for now, enough time for me to calm down and just co-exist.
Been out Christmas shopping today with her other daughter. Both going to see Sheena's grave again tomorrow - just been bitterly, bitterly cold recently!!
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All the best with going back to work. It will probably help you mentally to have some distraction and to get your life back to something as near to normal as you can hope for. Take care.
Fancy a meet up at the guitar show in brum next year?
You feel angry because it's a perfectly natural part of the grieving - and healing - process.
Being a complete non-expert, I'd say the fact that you're feeling it is a good thing. It shows that your emotions are still there and you're recognising them - and you're dealing with them very sensibly. It shows that you're going through the healing process, which will (eventually) get you to a better place.
So, if you can, be happy about feeling angry.
Been back at work two days now. It's a slog. Everybody has been great (super supportive work and good team) but the days are dark and I'm not used to sitting in a chair for 8+ hours a day and in front of a screen anymore. I wondered why my old chair kept hitting its arms against the desk and somebody else had to point out I had to lower the seat - obviously I'm just "not with it." Also, 4 months out of semiconductors and there's so much that has changed. Just have to keep chipping away at it. It was quite sad driving home yesterday because no matter how good, bad, exciting or dull work could be, Sheena would always be there at the end of it and made me feel better and almost give me a reason to get through the day, as such. Maybe I'll move to Jamaica and paint boats or something
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one of my clearer memories was sitting in the Chinese takeaway in Biggar waiting for my dinner and thinking, I’ll go home and maybe go out for a jog
I think that’s where I turned a corner from existing to living again
but it took more than a few months
I'm not locked in here with you, you are locked in here with me.
I think I'd be sorely tempted to try something new out but I've got responsibilities now.
So tired. Not touching guitar. Just cannot be @rsed with anything.
Every night I look at the photos & videos on Google Drive - there are sooo many. I think I wont properly go through them all until months have passed. Or years, if I dip in and out.
Cannot be @rsed. That sums it up.
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I'm not locked in here with you, you are locked in here with me.
forcing your brain to think about complicated work stuff takes a while to get used to
Hang out with mates whenever you can, take the girls somewhere new. Come and visit me in Brighton....